Carter's Outlet!!!! Black friday = %80 off, OMG!!!!

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I caant wait to get to the Carter's outlet on thanksgiving day. They will be opeing at 11pm that night with this crazy %60 off sale and if you have this coupon you ARE allowed to combine it to make ur purchase %80 off!!! Craziness! yes, I WILL be going wild :) The same offer is going to be on the table at the Osh Kosh outlet. Here's the coupon ...

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21 weeks -24 weeks!

I took that ring out , it started hurting ..the 2nd pic is me with my daddie...pics of my stretch marks - like u wanna see right lol ( in order by weeks : 21 weeks, 20 weeks, first belly pic is 20 weeks next ones at 22 weeks) My line is off lol but the lines are gettting dark so weird , I LOVE it !!!)

Sooo im way overdue for this post so here goes my attempt at catching up...

21 weeks

It was pretty EVENTFUL...the event? At 21 weeks and 6 days to my horror I found stetch marks to the right of my belly button. I was like gosh I didnt even know I was even getting that big! Anyways, Im using this "belly bar" and "candy bar" by Oyin Handmade. We shall see if it works :/ lol

22 weeks

I went to the doctor this week and he basically did NOTHING...AGAIN! I havent had an ultrasound by him since I was 9 weeks . I mean really what is he waiting for..if the baby hadnt of been moving by now and I didnt have my handy heart monitor aandd I didnt have an ultrasound by Bella Mamma for gender (ha ! doc :p) Id be a wreck..gosh! Because I like him alot though and because he's been a doc for 30 years and because he's an old school african doctor... I remain trustful, but i mean really doc come oooon. I have an appointment the week after thanksgiving though and when I called to ask about an ultrasound she said I'd get one then and also do my glucose nasty drink test and I think more bloodwork, so that had put me at ease a little. So anyways I bought my crib from pbkids and the penelope bedding this week when I went on a trip to N..C. , so cute! Ive been keeping my little co.usins ( .2 years and .3 years old) since august and it may be permen.ant so Im praying about it and really excited to be doing mommy stuff already, so fun. Anyways they went on the trip too.

23 weeks

Nothing really happened this week. I bought alot of baby clothes from target and babies r us- the baby shoes there are sooo cute. The baby was moving alot more and I felt like I was having braxton hicks one night. I still dont know how those are suppose to feel ..it was uncomfortable but not painful but when i felt my uterus it didnt feel like it was getting hard , idk.

im 24 weeks today!! Viability right?! cool!!!!

she hasnt been moving that much today so ill be going to get my heart monitor ina sec. I love her already *sigh* Now for some pics...

20 weeks !!! WHOhoooooo :)

YUP, half way yaaaay , Im enjoying the every so often pokes and nudges...bring em on mama!!! mooooore lol ...Ive had light heartburn maybe 3 times within the week (singing: tum, tum tum tuuums) so hopefully she WILL have alot of hair -even though I think that is nohow noway related in anyway. Old people and their beliefs! lol

I had a rescan on tuesday and she is definitely a VERY active girl. Ill try to post those pics before I deliver lol ... I dont want to lie :)

luv evry' body keep praying for a happy healthy baby and great delivery, thanks !!

PICTURES<--- Im shocked too LOL... 18wk6days , 19 weeks tommrrow

Is my hubby a great photographer or what !!!! almost half way , go me!

Best stroller/car seat system on earth, im serious!!

If you know nothing about the ORBIT SYSTEM ...Watch this video , I can NOT wait to get this, OMG!!!!!

Gender Results (((Drumroll))).....

Had an ultrasound at Bella Mamma today at 17wks&5days. After the cord being in the way and much wiggling , waving, & kicking ..three distinct lines says SHES A GIRL :)....am I shock or am I shocked?? YUP! lol I soooo thought I was having a boy BUT have always secretly wanted a girl :) so needless to say I am REALLY excited! Beddings that I heart so far are as follows....

from pbkids.com along with Love Bird Baby Bedding and Accessories &"Ladybug" 4-pc. Set @JCP - I couldnt copy paste the JCP stuff

15 weeks

15 weeks today !! I heard the heartbeat with my hi-bebe doppler FINALLY after trying for 2 weeks :) it was love..he's so cute I cant even take him right now!!! nah lol I went to the OB last week heard the hb and got lab results back...bladder infection and GBS+ whoooohooo, not. Neither is a big deal though although the bladder infection CAN become one untreated. So onto Microdantin pills 4 times a day for 10 days!!! Really?! who can really fit that many pills in over the day (to be taken every 6 hours- blaaah) Im usually only getting in 3 pills a day Ive just settled with that - Im just going to of course make sure I finish all of them so Ill probably be taking them over 2 weeks...a mess!!

Anyways Im feeling great but Im not eating so great. Im back to not really liking food and it sucks I can NEVER find stuff I want to eat. I started a registry at Target and Babiesrus that was fun other than that and keeping 2 kiddos -long story ..save for lata- im doing great!!!So Ive been so lazy slash maybe overly private about my pics but I WILL be posting some ...who knows when - ill surprise yall :)

13 weeks :)soooo at least im in the teens!!!

13 weeks today!! cant wait for my MD appointment wednesday (sept.9th) ...thought I felt the baby move for the last 3 days..I could Definitely be losing it though, I KNOW I KNOW its still a lil early for that. Im getting tired of the "a little early for that" talk in my head too. week 4 was early...even week 6 was early but goodness give me some credit mind...Im 13 whole weeks that's gotta count for something... I like counting it and I LOVE counting ahead even more for that matter so blah to u mind for being such a downer when I turn weeks!! Besides Im getting bigger =p ....

Im feeling pretty normal these days. So normal that my food aversions are leaving. I swore that Id NEVER eat chicken and BBQ again... I ate both this week and it was decent- I didnt love it but I can stomach it. So im proud....ive been constipated - the story of many

I full of it...yup full of crap...(((shouting))) Im full of ........................ POOP!! (heeeey u know I dont use those words!!!!) lol....... anyways bye im habving too much fun and I WILL be posting belly pics soon I PROMISE!!!

11 weeks tommorrow ...or I CAN say 3 months next week lol

lots of stretching going on in the ute starting last night... I was so shocked of what I was feeling in my sleep that I went to go pee...after dribbles and a knawing pulling sensation that has lasted since then, I've diagnosed myself with a stretching ute...hope I'm right since I mean Im such a pregnancy expert and all (whatever lol). All is great --i think my tandem dha vitamins has given me TMIIII ALLEEEEERT the constant poo poos :( Im changing AGAIN..please recommend a good vitamin :( lol luv latas smoooooches...OB visit Sept 9th! @13wk6days which of course one day from being 14 wks so ...14 wks!!

p.ssssss...ohhhh I got a LOT of maternity stuff today my belly is definitely sweeling ...materny skinny jeans at gap online are AWESOME !!! they came today and I LOVE them!!!!

10 weeks today!

10 weeks!!!! whohhoooooo , finally double digits !!!!! I cut up the elastic band on the scrub pants I wore yesterday,ha -I guess that means I already need to go maternity pants shopping (again!!,shh) Pray for my babyluv!!!!

My OB appointment and symptoms :)

Its been a while ey? now 9 wks2days..I know, I know ..sorry! I went out of town to good ole .L-.A. Anyways, I went to my OB on wednesday and all is well with C.h.ip. Thats his nickname :) At the time I was 8wk6days and he measured exact. I also had a pap smear from hell. I've had many pap smears and I always glide through them with no pains, no issues, easy sailing. Wll not this one, OMGosh!!! He said I had my pregnancy and retroverted uterus to thank for all my pain. Thank you I guess, whatever it takes right. It was horrible though..full of jerking and pulling ! When I left the office my pain was pretty much over but when night time fell (pretty much like the first day of exercise) my hoooha hurt so bad I had to lay down and I kept checking for blood- which thank God - didnt show up.

Anywho my baby is doing great , his heart was beating away perfectly and he was even moving a little bit. I was so nervous prior to my appointment because like I keep telling my friends who havent been pregnant - pregnancy feels like a regular day when Im not on my period. No cramping no signs in my uterus that there is even anything inhabiting it and thats just sooo weird to me. I thought pregnant people always feel cramps and a heavy non normal feeling in their uterus, feel me? So anyways, I obviously was worrying for nothing. My Ob said to guzzle water if I cramp (102 degrees everyday where I live)- so I take it from that that constant cramping would not be good.

As for my symptoms, Ive really had none except for indigestion and its not even that bad I just burp ..what my hubluv describes as a snake going "ssssssss". - Not a loud burp just air escaping ALL day and tums doesnt help it. It doesnt bother me so I dont really care to fix it anyway. Week 6 &7 , my stomach was in knots I had constant indigestion that kept me sittin on the toliet (sorry if tmi) but I think it was mainly due to the prenatals C.itranatal that contains a stool softner. I changed to T.andem DHA and those have been working better so far. Week 8&9 I have pretty much no symptoms to complain about because my boobs no longer feel like they've been cut into - just sporatic twinges that kinna feel like pinches and the now blue veins that peek from under my brown skin have become cool to stare at :)

I cant stand anything tight on my tummy but I havent really seen growth in it either. I do have food aversions to most foods...bbq and the smell of it, & all types of chicken anyway its disguised. The only things I really love right now are chili dogs, steak and cheeses, bake potatoes from J.ason's D.eli or Luby's(spud au broc , yum), and Shrimp ramen noodle cups- weird I know haha I should be sick of them since I ate 'em so much in college...

thats all for now

thinking about :

what pump I want

what cloth diapers I'm buying

what new car Im getting

my nursery theme (boy) ..Prince/ Owls or both??

what crib for nursery and what crib for my room

nauseousss?! crap... :)

6wk6days>>>> ut ohhh starting to constantly feel grossy... At first I was like maybe Im hungry..i ate...then i said maybe i need more water...I guzzled to death....and then I said maybe I need to tmi "go to the bano"..done! Still grossy :( nausea???!! thanks for the reassurance but leave me alone!

Houston we have an awesome heartbeat!!!!! 6wk5days

Yup just one, we thought two and so did my OB and RE. My parents and hubby keep insisting that there has got to be another one "hiding"anywho, I'd NEVER complain about the one. Im SOOO happy!! Hubby videoed, I got the pic and I just couldnt be more excited. Last night at 6wk4days I got a little yuck feeling ..not really nausea just kinna grossed out. I can explain it. Maybe it was how my body says "hey this is preggo nausea". Food is still grossing me out every other dayish...

That was it though ..so I was worried for nothing :) everything is going perfectly! as it will continue to go :)My clinic was also congratulating me as did the lab girl in my clinic...I was a lil dissapointed that I didnt see my favorite resident doc. Allison but whatever I'll get over it I guess (sigh). Im happy so who cares right?! Im released from my RE and ok'd to stop taking my suppositories because of my stellar 58.7 progesterone level...I think im going to finish my bottle though I have like 8 days left so we shall see lol Its a little nerve-racking to just stop them cold turkey.. so I will warn myself for a week or so :)

keep praying for us and baby (I think boy)

Charity

food aversions??6wk 1 day, yaaay

I've seen this in lists of preggo symptoms not really ever giving it any thought. But goooodness, if this doesnt describe me lately I dont know what does. EVERYTHING grosses me out...ok almost everything grosses me out. Any type of chicken that doesnt come in KFC fried hotwing form , I HATE lol My mom got a rotissere chicken the other day from ther grocery store and It looked so disgusting to me. I cant eat hamburgers, chickfili sandwiches, chicken strips, salad..all things that I loved. Right now, all I eat is kfc wings, fries, pancakes and fruit. I dont know what Im going to eat today though cus I dont want KFC wings again, blaaah. Anyway, I've said all this to say that I have NO appetite :) Im still thankful that at leassst I dont have nausea!

Charity

ultrasound &beta #2 @ 22dp3dt/25dpo

On monday I had an ultrasound with my mom's friend who will be my OB. He wouldnt do a transvaginal since I came to him via IVF. He said that he didnt wanna go poking in there before I got released from my RE. He said if he did it transvaginally he would be able to see a heartbeat but blah what's the use of telling me that if you're not. I understood though lol ..sorta haha. I also had my blood drawn and my hcg just after 7 days(( drumroll))...8398, score!!! and my progesterone on just 1 suppository was 66.4, go me ! I did see my speckle of babies YES babies he said that he saw the outline of another sac but since he wasnt using the wand and he was being "careful" not to poke hard into my belly with the ultrasound majig ..blah again.

In better news, my peeps from my RE's office called and said that my numbers were awesome and that my RE said that he didnt know why he scheduled my appt. so late ( uh, they told me he was going out of town but whatever lol) and that he is going to do my ultrasound this coming up TUESDAY ...yaaaaaaaay yay yays and kudos to my RE :)

Another symptom..

this would be besides the minor hardly never cramping I have (maybe for 5 min. every other day or so). Seems like its only when I stand too long. Anywaaays....

I have to chart these for my records..this past week my stomach muscles have been VERY sore! Im talkin' sore like I did crunches (what a joke). Anywho, I googled this to see if others had had sore tummy muscles this early and alot came up of preggos with sore tummys so I guess I'm a normal preggie. It is said to have to do with the body producing natural muscle relaxers- shoot that might be why I felt so drugged on tuesday and wednesday lol nah, but my body is way too cool right now I cant even take myself lol !

CharityLuvin

Progesterone Level #2 (and Beta#2 shhhh...lol)

Today my RE called and said that he wants me to have a progesterone blood draw early monday morning since I went from 2 suppositories to 1 because of my stellar progesterone level this past monday (50.7). This was the perfect time to get in something I want lol ..... another HCG level. So yeah, I asked can I get another one so I can see where my level is at what will be 22dp3dt or 25dpo( 5.4wks). Something else to keep me busy, yipee. My mom's friend- who will be my OB-GYN may give me an ultrasound monday (5.4wks) we shall see- not that much to see on ultrasound probably but we will at least be able to see how many - possibly! I dont know if I'll go though I definitely wont trump my RE cus im still in his care. Pray for my babies !!

Charity!

the symptom i just realized I had...

Im the hotness...NO, really! I had to add this at least just for me, IM ALWAYS HOT!!!! I just realized that that has been one of my main symptoms that I left out. Now, granted its always hot in Texas but when Im in Walmart im hot, when Im home im hot, when im enclosed in a good air conditioned building im freakin hot ...hot hot hot!!!!Any other preggos have this as a main symptom??? ivntee07 on youtube has this too so I know im not alone !!! ((rip MJ)) lol

Well I just googled and saw that on average pregnant women run 10 degrees hotter , i guess thats my answer!!

5 weeks

GO go go me me me !!!!

Every week counts...get those hearts beating and organs growing babies!! We told my grandma and oldest aunt today. My husband said "Mudea we will be bringing a baby/babies to the family reunion next summer!" They were so excited and promised to pray for the baby/babies. They'll keep it quiet until I tell them :). Anyways, my boobs are still on fire and my uterus is still very quiet. My throat is getting scratchy so I hope Im not getting a cold, blah. Anywho, check out the crib im getting, i heart it so much !

Another 2ww(2 wk wait), u have gotta b kidding me?!!!?

Soo my ultrasound isn't gonna be until July 28th!!!!!!! That is so long , what in the world am I gonna do until then. My RE is out of town AGAIN next week so blah blah blah blah blaaaaaah to him lol Love u Schenken!! Thankfully Ive got a house full of kids (nieces and lil cousin) for the summer ages 3, 4, 11,& 13 all girls. So I saw a "summer camp" sign on the young chef academy door when I rode by this morning HOPEFULLY they will take my crew. Back to my ultrasound, OMGoshums!!! By that time -let me look at my calendar 7.5 weeks...how excruciating, i mean really lol. My progesterone was 50.7 so Im down to 1 suppository at bedtime, so that cool- i guess :/. They said normal is 20! So my body is doing stellar right now.

Symptoms??

Nothing but PAINFUL boobs and lil smidget of fatigue

5 weeks tommorrow!!!!!!!!!! I think TWINS- we shall see...

Beta Numbeeeeer.....15dp3dt(18dpo) , 4 weeks5days

15dp3dt... 845!!!! Pray that I have a healthy nine months. The medical assistant called me and tried not to give me the number so I was like "what is the number because I know that it's positive" and she was like we usually dont give it out until we talk to the doctor yet and your progesterone doesnt come back until tommorrow but yes , you are pregnant and it was 845!! I was like oooooo aaaaahhhh ..so excited. My RE's office is gonna call me tommorrow and let me know what my progesterone is and tell me what my plan of care will be like. He says that he likes to see back between 6-7 weeks so hopefully that'll be late next week or early in the weeks after next... Every thursday I turn a new week so this week Ill be 5 weeks and next week 6 weeks... :) Anyways, Ill update tommorrow ((singing)) Im soo excited !! and I just cant hide it!!! lol

Beta Day...

im sooo excited to find out some numbers! I went sleepily at 730a to the lab ....We shall seee :)

4wk4 days

Dont feel anything!!!! Cant wait to FEEEL preggo..maybe i'll take another test since i still have 3 more lol!!

Preggo me...

Happy 4th of July!!!!!!

Not only do I thank God for our freedoms, I thank God for freeing me this weekend ..for answering my prayer after almost 4 years...for being a faithful God to me. This experience has taught me sooooo many things. I thank Jesus Christ for allowing me to come out victorious and I know that with Him ALL things are possible. God is great and greatly to be praised for remembering lil ole me. Ive had sooo much heartache and in a day , Jesus delivered. Hallelujah Believe also and so shall u be delivered!!!

My day went as such...

- wake up @ 640a and take another hpt..POSITIVE AGAIN ( 4 tests all different ALL +'s) I LOVE IT!!! - when i figure out how to post pics i will maybe tomorrow sometime...

- go to grocery store with Hubdadluv ( yea I added dad hehe) to get grilling meat..chicken, fajitas and sausage just for 5 since ALL my relatives decided to go out of town for the fourth (we've been on the go so this was our stay home all weekend and enjoy being preggo and relaxin weekend)

-come home and google maternity clothes, baby clothes, cribs etc. - so fun!

-lay around, eat, talk to 2 of my cousins

- go to target buy what to expect book, by yoga maternity pants (yes, already! I couldnt resist), looked for the be band since my tummy is already bloated - I did not find one. Get a lil dizzy in target.

-Notice I have fine acne still.. I noticed at 9-10dp3dt that it was more than at usual period time

- go to Old navy...but maternity tank with shelf bra since my boobs hurt SOOOO bad and them flopping at night hurts worst! so ill be sleeping in that from now on- great investment since before preggo Ive slept braless in tanks.

-Read some of what to expect..

- watch the new Denzel movie

-blog lol

another symptom to add is that I have had a pulling kind of sensation in my uterus since 10dp-11dp..its not cramps its just like a pulling , like stretching ..anyone else?? Ive also kinna felt my ovaries twinge a few times whats that about??? T.bird can u shed some light if u read this ??!! i'll talk others comments also lol thanks...

Charity Luvin- Im a momma!!!

11dp3dt and what do you know??!!???

IM PREGGO!!!!!!!!! I've also been sworn to secrecy by my hubby until im 6 wks blah for that!! Im sooo excited , like I really dont even know how to express my excitement. I wasnt suppose to POAS BUT the stupid lab isnt going to be open on my beta day which is SUPPOSE to be tommorrow. So I said to my hubluv last nite since I cant have my beta, we will POAS my beta day. Well tonight at about 9pm-930ishpm when everyone left he said GO TEST!!! ( a day early) and I just jumped up and he ran behind me, I peed lol and immediately pretty much the plus sign came up (clear blue easy the early one).. Tommorrow im going to get the one that says "pregnant "

My hubluv recorded my reaction, it was just really cool I feel and am blessed so much right now- after aaaaall Ive been threw wheeeeww!! I just immediately praised Jesus- He definitely gets all the praise and honor for this.So my beta will be monday and I will definitely tell my beta numbers which will be great!!!!Enjoy the 4th of July - I definitely will.

Pray for my babies- that they keep growing healthy and strong and that they feel the presence and power of God while in their mama, my hubluv is praying that just like john the baptist was filled with the holy spirit in his mamas wound our babies will be filled while in my womb!!!!

CharityLuvin

the twins' mama :)

9dp3dt and symptoms so far...

so in somewhat of a summary fashion 1dp3dt-3dp3dt I had cramping . After the 3rd day I had no more cramping until yesterday which was 8dp3dt- and its very kinna like slight cramping not hard on just annoying. I also noticed that I became kinna bloated yesterday. Lets see from about 3dpt-7dpt I could only sleep on my back my hip joints kinna ached..thats weird and maybe not related to this whole process lol. Ive been decorating my house so I couldhve moved a weird way or something who knows :) Anyways thats whats been going on so far -beta is friday or monday depending on if I go out of town for the 4th or not so we'll be reporting that BFP soon :)

2dp3dt

So far my boobies hurt soo mama bad and Ive had cramping that I'm pretty sure is from the progesterone suppositories...I'm excited and faithful and am already singing to the embies everyday heh. Anywhooo, im truckin along well. Hey! was so scared and walking all slow because I thought that the embies could fall out lol (stupid, I kno..i learned and googled , googled and learned lol). .can it fall out ????

what happens after a 3 day and a 5 day transfer

3-DAY TRANSFER:
1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
2dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
3dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
4dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
5dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
6dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
7dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells & fetal cells
8dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
9dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
10dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
11dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on HPT

5-DAY TRANSFER:
-1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
0dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
1dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
2dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
3dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
4dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
5dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells & fetal cells
6dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
7dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
8dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
9dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on HPT

My Father's day transfer!!!! 5 made it to snowbabies!!!

It was awesome!!! No pain at all.No cramping or anything , my RE was surprised lol. He washed off my cervix and inserted the embies, 2- which he said were "textbook"!!!! (8 cell). I said, can you put 3 in and he said "you really dont want to end up with triplets". My cousin was like yes we do !!!! lol He started talking about developmental problems blah blah blah so I was like ok, 2 then! (blah, but my RE is so nice I couldnt press the issue lol). He is usually very somber..nice but somber so it was just so weird to see him uber excited , i mean elated would be an understatement- just so much excitement in his voice - you heard it the most when he was talking about my embies and how excellent the quality was. go me and go hubluv lol. It was a special day though, I gave him the card I talked about in my last post and he prayed over the babies with the oil that was prayed over by my grandma and aunt at our wedding-he put it on my belly and kissed it , how cute right.

Anywho, Im believing that both will stick. God says,There will be none that are barren and miscarry among you and Im holding onto that !!! We have a VERY busy week and weekend so that should make it easy for me to get through the week.Im going to be tied up with lots of family staying at my house until 8dp3dt (8 days past a 3 day transfer). Yes!!! I thank God for aligning things this way so I can just stay busy shoot. :) Im also reading a bestselling book called Shanghai girls I really like it so far so we shall see. I think it's going to go by fast though :) Did I say I have 5 embies frozen !!! yes 5!!!!! Im so in love right now!!!

CharityLuvin- mama to embies!!

8 eggs fertilized, transfer date etched in stone :)

What a father's day for my hubluv, dh. My transfer will me at 830am sunday morning , cool right?! I was so sad when mother's day rolled around and some internet buddies transferred that day and now God made it up for lil old me by letting me put a smile on my hubluv's heart. 8 eggs fertilized and Im still sticking to 3 , more than ever now since it'll be some hours short of a 3day. At the time that I called the embies aka my new loves were at a 2pn stage which I researched is appropriate for the time they have been growing. Hopefully they will grow really good through tommorrow. Im really hope I have 4 to freeze I will be praying about that tonite. My hubby has a SERIOUS obligation so he wont be able to be at the transfer- which he hate but my fav. cousin and possibly my dad will be his stand in :( Im still sad he cant make it. I bought him this cute father's day card that has a photo insert for your own pic and I will be puttin the embies pics there- Did I find the perfectest card ever or what ?!! I was so in love with that card. Get ur dhs cards. Happy father's day -weekend and please keep me and my embie kiddos in your prayers!! I love you all and really appreciate all of your support!!

special shoutouts to starsofastar and t.bird thanks alot!!!

11 eggs!!!!

I woke up EARLY yall at 5am to do the collection- got to the office at 650ish and I am soooo very happy to report that we retrieved 11 eggs, yes 11 whoohooo. Im just so grateful to God for that!! Lets see, I got there and they couldnt fing my vein at first but the second time was a charm. While that was going on the anesthesiologist, my RE and my lovely resident Allison came in to talk to me about everything. I'll start by saying that the procedure didnt hurt at all. As soon as I got to the room which was a regular ultrasound room i had been in before- I scooted all the way to the bottom. He put the sleepy stuff in my IVF and I was out. When I woke up I asked how many eggs and they said 10. Then Allison came in and said it was 11 eggs and that she found a big one at the very end , coool beans :) I feel a little achy now but Im already on the plane going home (ill be back for my transfer). The medicine they give you is so short acting that I had no problem at all waking up. I left the office at 9am, the procedure itself was only about 15 minutes. I had a little bleeding whenever I wiped this morning but its already gone. Im so excited and I cant wait for them to give me a fertilization report! Transfer is saturday or sunday so dont stop praying that all goes well and that those embies stick. I also picked up my progesterone suppositories today so no more shots, thank the Lord!!! All in all I feel great I slept for three hours woke up and went out to eat and now Im on the plane - thats how great I feel..just a lil achy!!!!!!

Night before retrieval :) ..tips on getting through an IVF cycle

Some people take weird supplements or have their rituals of what they do leading up to their retrievals. What did I do/take??

1. Prayer of Faith using the name of Jesus only

I have said a prayer of faith over my body and each reproductive organ almost everyday , praying in Jesus name (no other name will work!!). I have held the scripture VERY close to my heart that I paraphrase "I will not miscarry or be barren" from the verse that says there will be none that are barren and miscarry among you. Anytime a doubtful though comes to mind, I try my best to be on guard and refute it with what the Word says about me and "having a quiver full of kiddos" (fyi:quivers means 5).

2. Prenatal Vitamins, Selenium, Royal Jelly (pills), and Vitamin E

I didnt start taking any of these until I started stimming so I dont know how effective they were but I do know that I havent felt tired and my ovaries NEVER hurt . I NEVER felt bloated until AFTER my trigger tonight (being the first night Ive felt bloated) - my belly looks like im 6 months preggo, im serious! Prenatal Vitamins because I had a dream that I needed vitamin D or E ( iInever remembered which one lol, hence the reason Im taking vitamin E-vitamin D is included in mine already).Selenium? I just saw some people taking it and read that it was good for overall reproductive health. My husband is taking my prenatals (lol y not?!) with me and selenium- its good for spermies :) he's taking the vitamin E too.

3. Pinching up tummy fat 3 seconds before the shot numbs it !

Yup thats what I learned and it really worked good at the end I was really good at getting it numb I didnt feel that trigger shot at all !! :)

4. It's weird but I snacked on frosted mini wheats almost everyday of stimming and I found that tmi ..it cleans you out REALLY good and cuts cravings. Ive only been wanting fresh things like salads (from Panera bread yum!!! ) and apples. It's just soo crazy how picky Ive become. I read that when you get your colon cleansed it removes all the addictive stuff found in foods. Im a carbs girl so Im shocked by my new "healthy" craving for a "good salad" lol. This has nothing to do with IVF but sort of does because you can go into retrieval and transfer with a cleaned out system :)

Anyways retrieval in the am , got a collection condom for hubluv today waaay too early in the am for non baby makin lol I have to be in my RE's at 7am and the collection has so be within an hour LAAAWD lol

That was a weird conversation with the nurse btw lol "How is he going to collect ? hisself or (weird pause)" Me: (sweet n tender ) Um, I was wondering if the lab has collection condoms? Nurse: (races in ) YEA! thats what I was going to ask you ,If you are going to have intercourse ( me thinking: i hate that word ! this is so awkwardly embarrassing!!!) me: yes. Nurse: So after ejaculation (wow, lady) , put the entire condom in the cup do not dump out the semen. Me: okay, I got it. Cant wait till this is over even though it's DEFINITELY gonna be worth it lol whats up with all the caps lol till tommorrow sometime after retrieval!!!

The girl is bout to lay these eggs!!!

Yes honeys, Im bout to drop 'em like they hot lol (corny but ya gotta luv me lol). Today I had a lot of follicles that reached 20mm so crazy cus yesterday they were like 16mm lol No blood work today, yay. Dr. Allison said "tell your ovaries good job" lol.I love her !! Im about to trigger at 830pm exactly tonight which is like 7 minutes from now and then no more shots. I still have almost a whole pen of Gonal F left- ill save it :) for my next kiddos. IF I want more because I will be pregnant this time :) Anyway retrieval on thursday at 730am. My RE is back from London yaaay so he will be at my retrieval.Please pray that all goes well, I have lots of scarring in there so they will be cautious about puncturing my intestines (laawd) thankfully prayer works and Im praying that God covers me! I filled my vicodin script today , Im nervous about taking it though since it will be on an empty stomach anyways. I just got my trigger shot whooo hooo...Until thursday, please keep me in your prayers !!!!

CharityLuvin- soon to b mama!

Egg retrieval planned for...

(saturday) Day 6 E2=889

Monday (today) Day 8 E2=1730

The plan is...

Back to the RE in the am to check my now 10 follicles (yipee) to see if they matured

GonalF is down to 225iu today so it can bump me to 2000 and not too much past it (no OHSS here honeys). They are looking to do retrieval Thursday *angel music-whatever that is to u lol* agree with me on those 3 eggs we shall c we shall c :)

Im sooo excited *squeee* and ready for the transfer to be done! it has been sooo busy for us, i repeast sooooo busy . I feel like im at the RE everyday lol My hubluv's constant flowing lil joke is yankin me and saying "cold gel!!!" Thats what the RE always says while he's inserting the ultrasound wand LOL.

Id love 2 girls and a boy btw. Crazy arent I? yup prolly an RE's nightmare wantin that :)So hard not to b greedy when u dont have any yet :) Until manana.... (which means tommorrow, lawd beef up on ur spanish! lol)

Charityluvin

Day 6 of stimming , my appt.

E2 today= 330; Gonal F 375iu

8 eggs today ?? kinna low to me but my RE says he only wants me to have about 10 eggs for quality purposes and he only wants to transfer 2 - I will be talking him into 3 though as we get closer, ha :). He said retrieval will probably be tues or thursday- and transfer of course a couple of days after. Fun , Fun, Fun times, Im doing great and this process is flying by, Im loving it so far - its kinna fun being a patient (Im always on the nursing end and I have NEVER been in the hospital, sick or anything until now- i know Im weird but I feel like its added a little more dimension to me.) What's in being a human if you dont experience anything in your life?? Now Id rather NOT have this experience AT ALL ;) but I can say that I am truly enjoying the journey ...after all its not how fast you get there but who you are while you are getting there. God has truly covered me with his grace and peace and as long as I have that grace and peace I'll be a- okay. It's been a tough road for me but I know it's all coming to a close and I will will a mommie with stickie, snotty, food smashed on the floor in my backseat kids lol (ewww) I forgot to say that my eggs grew, the smallest was 6mm and largest was 10-11mm (they need to get to 18mm-which he said they should reach by monday). My uterine lining 6mm. It was a 5mm at my baseline appointment.

ps I had to buy another gonal f pen today (whohooo -not) hehe im still happy and grateful though I havent had to pay for any of my ultrasounds ($250 a pop) Praise JESUS for that!!

Charityluvin

Day 4 of Stimming , yup Im stimming whohooooo!!!!

Well, almost a week has passed and I DID get to start my stims wooowhooooo!!!! I was sooo excited. I went for my baseline and they DID see the "cyst" but two doctors determined that it was obviously not a "functional cyst" because if it was it would be producing more estradiol (estrogen aka E2) that 14. So they started me on 300iu. I went for my first monitoring appointment today and my E2= 96 after 3 days of stimming ( I started stimming saturday). Today they called me back and upped it to 375iu. They measured 6 on the left and 3 on the right all of them were 3-4mm. So they are small so Im praying for 12 mature eggs and that my ovaries start responding !! I know they will Im really having faith in God and leaving it in His hands. I will be updating more frequently now that Im on the roll hehe :) My next appointment is thurs. Pray for me and pray that the doc will put in 3 mature eggs (he only does 2 but I want 3 :) anyways until thursday !!

to ovulate or not to ovulate?!! that's is the question :)

So, my E2(estradiol) results = 14 and progesterone=1.15 I have researched these numbers and it looks good so hopefully I did not ovulate. My in town RE (the one that is NOT doing my IVF cycle) looked at my ovaries - the small cyst is still there ( i think that it got smaller) in addition to a questionable corpus luteum -not good so hopefully not cus that would mean I ovulated!! When my out of town RE was emailed my results ( he is overseas until the 10th of June) he said that I need to up my Lupron to 2.0 (see i wasnt so bad lol) and to still come in for my appointment this friday June 5th. This appointment will be my baseline appointment and I am hoping that I will finally get to start my stims. My last BCP was monday and I am already spotting wooowhoooo!!!! lol another IVF checkoff lol.

p.s. ask God, Im already a mama!!

CharityLuvin :) 

I Ovulated on BCPS ??!!??? Cancelled??!!???!!!

Sooooo... ((deep sighs)) I think Ive ovulated while on the BCPs and on my first day of Lupron which was yesterday (today is day 2).When I was on the plane yesterday I noticed some ovulation pains and then this morning I check to see if I have EWCM and I DO :( So I call my nurse and she says that I need to get checked out to see if I did because If I did my cycle will be cancelled. So I go monday at 1030a to see if I did or not. Im going to be sooo mad if I did. I felt like my lupron was starting too late but she said that the bcps should have suppressed me but I could have super charged ovaries. Does anyone know how they are gonna check to see if I did ..just by looking at the ultrasound or by both that and bloodwork? 

Anyways, Im praying about it so we will see. Today I cheated and took .15 (my dose is .10) I know I did a bad thing , I KNOW! , I just did and its too late for the lupron to do anything about it anyway but i had to try lol. If I did im interested to know how they will change my protocol for suppression for the next cycle. Anyways keep me in your prayers :) Until monday...

CharityLuvin :)

Yup, 1st Day of Lupron ...Am I cool or what!!?!!

Yea, i said it ! It all happened in the JAX airport too :) 0.1mL (10 units) of Lupron...pinchy, slight burn, then poof it was gone! NOT BAD, not bad at all. My RN mommie gave it to me ((cheers)) , she'll be the shot giver until hubluv returns :( lol (no offense but my hubluv and shotgiving just dont marry well :) lol.

*****BCP side effects ALERT *****

heh that lil banner was fun .... Major, MAJOR Sore Boobs...like i just got surgery on the boobs , sore boobs, like engorged with milk (has never felt this) sore boobs!!! Ive never been on BCPS so im like OMG this HURTSSS!!! Mind you , this is not my period is coming sore boobs ..this is I have cuts from surgery sore boobs (as if i didnt say this once already).I stop bcps monday yipee and it seems like I will almost never stop Lupron but whatever it takes right lol 

My baseline appt. is June 5th, pray that the cyst is gone (in Jesus' Name)  and that I will be able to stim away :)

God is great and God IS definitely good to me!!

Charity Luvin :)

Sooo its Memorial Day weekend and while I am so very proud of our military and how they have fought for our freedoms Im even prouder of my mommy, my hero. Her birthday is tommorrow and I will be celebrating her big and small throughout my whole weekend. We always say that in my family bdays last a week. We do up bdays and holidays for each other :) I love my family!

On an IVF note ALL of my meds arrived this week. YAAAAY!!! one step closer, us IVFers love to get things checked off :) My BROTHER opened my lupron when he doesnt even know about me getting IVF. We work together and he was like it said refrig. immediately with your name on it OK that doesnt mean you were suppose to open it brother?? love him to death but gosh!!!! My mom says he is still clueless though lol His new wife is pregnant 10 weeks to be exact -happy for her but blaaah lol My other really good friend that had problems getting pregnant is 20 weeks so I was so pleased to hear that. (blah though yeah blah lol)

Its funnie how God will make u minister to someone out of your own pain. She confided in me that she was having a lot of trouble conceiving her 2nd child over 3 years. God gave me a vision of her pregnant and I told her about it and it was probably about 4 months after that she was pregnant. ( I did not tell her I was having trouble for fear that she'd feel sorry for me if she got pregnant before me -smooth move right lol). Anyways im going to the beach for my mommie's bday this weekend and going out of town this weekend with my 'rents since my hubluv will be out on business. Mommie will be giving me my shots and she is experienced yipeeee lol Im going to be scared when hubluv gets back lol

My heart smiles :)

So, last night I had DREAAAAM with a pregnancy test in my hands and It was positive. I just kinna tilted it to show my hubluv and you would think ...YOU WOULD THINK in the dream I would scream and be so elated but I instead was just at peace with it like yup its positive just like I thought it would be. Needless to say I woke up with a heart smile :). I think Ive been worrying too much about my upcoming cycle and the matter of fact-ness that I felt was a revelation to me to just calm down on the inside and keep rolling by the grace, peace and strength that only a relationship with God can and has brought. Im so very peaceful and hopeful...still taking the good ole BCPS until the 1st of June . Lupron on the 28th of may. Never thought that I'd be looking forward to shots lol. See all that mommy is doing for you ??? You better treat me well when you get here !! Sidebar for my future kiddos. 

My Gonal-F pens are here , i just gotta get em from the post office. IVFmeds.com oh how I love you. I got 4 (900 iu) pens for 540.00 each (regular price ranges from 700-1000 for each pen) . I knew that Id love the convenience of the pen over the vials. Ill post pics when they get in my possession. 

2nd day of bcps

Today is my 2nd day of BCPS. Im going to do an IVF scrapbook. I bought a whole kit from walmart , im going to add extra stuff to make it my own though. I went to church today, it was pretty good. No new news, I'm just praying for all my youtubers going through cycles. Im upbeat and believing God for my cycle to work the FIRST time. Im also praying that this cyst will go away, hopefully the BCPs will help with that. Well, im halfway watching this Laker v. Rockets game. Go Rockets!!!! remember that God is in control.

CharityLuvin-soon to be mama :)

My first IVF appointment!!!

Well it was really fun. My RE and IVF nurse crammed in everything they possibly could since we are out of towners (about 3 and some change hours away). It started with my RE explained a step by step of the IVF process to me (even though ive done my research it sounded like gold coming from him lol). Before that actually my RE intern looked at my microscopic , now almost non-exsistent scars and talked about the Twilight books with me- do I love her so? yes, i dooo. Back to my RE , he was really good about explaining everything. I was given my BCPs and told to start them on the 3rd day of my cycle which was suppose to be after the 18th since that is when my period was due. Then to the IVF nurse she explained it all again in further details and had papers and booklets and all the goodies. We practiced -hubby and I - doing the shots (even though I'm an RN) it was soo funnie seeing hubs do the shots. We had a blast (o, the ways my "fun-having" have changed) we saw the room where I will have my retrieval and the room that I will have my transfer. So all in all it was a thumbs up appointment until the RE decided he sound a cyst on my ovary -tear :( He said that its probably from where I ovulated last month and that it should go away. Pleaseee go away in Jesus naaame !!! Ive that stims wont be given if cysts are present so be in prayer for me about that. 

Better news is that I got my period a smig early ...I daaanced and jumped around lol I was so excited to see AF come. It's been a long time (like never) since Ive been glad to see it come. So I talked to the IVF nurse this morning and she was like "is it a full flow" uh yes its a full flow , duh! is what I wanted to say but I just said "yes" lol and she faxed me a tenative schedule. I heart IVF paperwork, I hold it like its gold lol. She also faxed my scripts and Ive already paid for 4 Gonal-F pens (2,200) I got 'em from IVFmeds.com - i heard they were the cheapest or "least exspensive". She is going to be ordering my Lupron and Ovidrel so I'm waiting for the company to call to ask for my payment. I cant wait until they all come in the mail :) Keep me in your prayers 

CharityLuvin -soon to be mama :)

BCPS May 18-

Lupron starts on the 28th -

Road to IVF...im driving on it yup !!!!

So I had my lap. 2 weeks ago I was feeling normal 6 days after. Easy, easy 3 (less that one inch cuts) and one thru the belly button. It wasnt bad at all. The RE cleaned out all of the scar tissue ..come to find both tubes are open (wow) BUT he couldnt get the scar tissue from around my ovaries (how funnie but not so funnie at all) sooo IVF is what I will be doing and I am VERY excited.I have an appointment to get my whole protocol for my cycle that will start next week. If anyone is reading this please answer me this if you know the answer. My RE's nurse said that I will start my bcps on cycle say 3 and that I will have my egg retrieval and transfer in the same cycle the saaaame month. I see so many others starting their bcps the cycle before their er and et... is it necessary? My period is already regular, I cycle every 28 days pretty much like clockwork. Is that why I dont have to? I dont know but I will be asking at my appointment tommorrow. I will be upsated this blog more regularly because Im about to be on the rool with all of this whooohoooo !!!! Id definitely love the comments and encouragement if you are reading I will be doing the same for others going through the process. Have a great day !!!!

 

Unredeemed!!

Unredeemed

(Written by Chad Cates, Tony Wood, Brian Petak)

Produced by Bernie Herms

And had the FIRE sung out of it by Amy Perry and my Toddy.

The cruelest words

The coldest heart

The deepest wounds

The endless dark

The lonely ache

The burning tears

The bitter night

The wasted years

Life breaks and falls apart

But we know these are…

Places

Where grace is

Soon to be so amazing

They may unfulfilled

They may unrestored

But when anything that’s shattered

Is laid before the Lord

Just watch and see

It will not be

Unredeemed

For every choice

That led to shame

And all the love

That never came

For every vow

That someone broke

And every life

That gave up hope

We live in the shadow of the fall

But the cross says these are all – just

Places

Where grace is

Soon to be so amazing

They may unfulfilled

They may unrestored

But when anything that’s shattered

Is laid before the Lord

Just watch and see

It will not be

Unredeemed

They may unfulfilled

Unredeemed by Selah (Coming out in August 09) I love these words!!!!

They may unrestored

You never know the miracles

The father has in store

Just watch and see

It will not be

Unredeemed

Grace for my journey

Im feeling great today and just praying that God keeps me through this whole 4 year infertility thing. I just want to be grounded emotionally and mentally ya kno?! I want God to be proud of how I handled this part of my life. It's so hard to remain faithful and hopeful though. Im on the up and up though. Im soo exited about my appointment to the reknown RE out of town and am hoping we can get closer to having these babies. I want 4- 6 of them and Im already 26 going on 27 so I need to get it moving. My times are in his hands though. 

Anyways, I loved the verse in 2 Corinthians that says how God's grace is sufficient for us in our weakness. Grace is his ability to keep us mentally and emotionally grounded in touch situations. I asked for his grace the other night and he really has come through for me. I was feeling sooo depressed the other day and after meditating on his word I felt him strengthen me. I know my hubluv was thankful for that because I was being soo snappy. I'm determined to continue to seek God for the strength that I need until this journey of infertility is done though.God is teaching me a lot and I know that Life whether it's infertility of something else tough is always going to present itself (The bible says that it rains on the just and the unjust). 

I dont know about you but I want to handle life graceful and this is teaching me that whatever I face now and after infertility to remember that God has grace (supernatural strength ) for my journey. If you feel like snapping, like throwing in the towel, remember that God has supernatural strength for your journey. Ask for it, and believe that you have recieved it . I encourage you to go to biblegateway.com and type in grace so that you can see what God has to say about his grace towards His kids :)

My Infertility Journey

Yeah, so this is my 3rd attemped blog lol. I hope to actually us this blog. I am 26 happily married for 3 years and found out officially by the RE last year that I have tubal factor infertility and need IVF. A pretty intense blow. Im a christian and choose to focus the great things I'm learning from this ..talk about patient endurance wheeew...I wont fool you though I don't focus on my focus like I need to but hopefully this blog will encourage me to. I want to look back on this part of my life as a time when I was faithful to God in hope, faith and love. I believe if we keep those three things close we will be pleasing to Him. Anyways I'm off for a second opinion (My RE wants to send me out of town to talk to his mentor to see if surgery should be done to 1. remove my right tube that has a lot of scarring on it and loosen some adhesions present via laparotomy (the big huge c-section cut) or 2. since by vaginal ultrasound my ovaries are accessible for IVF should he leave everything alone and proceed with IVF. So I guess we will see what the md says on Apr. 15th. My RE says my tube is blocked but not dilated with fluid... Im aware that hydrosalpinx can decrease implantation in IVF patients because of the toxic fluid leaking but he says that that is not my case and that the adhesions present would not adversely affect a pregnancy. He also says that my tubes cant be repaired. He did a lap last year in May and said that he could not see the tubes because of the scarring so how does he know they are unrepairable - i dont know. Needless to say Im very excited about seeing what this Mentor- Med school instructor -published everywhere -medically acclaimed RE is going to say about my medical mystery lol Im hopeful though, If IVF presents im ready!! Im definitely wanting to dodge this laparotomy (csection cut with a HOSPITAL STAY YUCK!!!!) If thats what he says I need I'll do that too (ewww)...anyways hubluv is supportive but doesnt really want IVF buuut says we'll c what mentor RE says...Im still praying that God intervenes and I have a baby naturally. Whatever happens I know that barreness is not of God and hold fast (or TRYING to hold fast) to the scripture that says he will make the barren woman a joyful mother of children . Im believing for twins, it'll happen.